This brings me to the Title of my blog. I've been trying to write this song about a specific series of events from my youth. It made me think about all of the songs I used to identify with during that period of time. So, I thought I'd post the ones I can remember.
Without You by Motley Crue. Yep, this was on a loop for a while. The guy I liked was just not that into me. I'm sad to admit that Motley Crue ever did it for me. What an annoying voice that dude has. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P3QhVeHr-gM
King of Wishful Thinking by Go West. I have no idea if this is the original video or not, but if it is OMG that was the lamest thing I've witnessed in a while. It's equally lame that I was so obsessed with this song. I've always had a thing for meaningful lyrics. This song was my pep talk. Sure, I'll get over you, assuming I don't die a horrible death. (yes, I was dramatic even back then). https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aaZaTlcbYxw
Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough by Patty Smyth and Don Henley. This song used to depress me, but I loved it so much. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qdzbjUWu2VU
I Can't Make You Love Me by Bonnie Rait. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nW9Cu6GYqxo I spent so much time when I was younger trying to *make* people love me. I was like, "DUDE, I'm here look at me, I'm totally awesome." I always liked this song but refused to believe that the guy I liked didn't really love me. That was Bonnie's problem, not mine.
I was absolutely convinced that the guy I was madly in love with (at 11, 12, 13, and 14, probably even 15, 16, and 17 too) would one day love me back. I knew it like it was a fact. I never had a doubt in my mind. Even when I got sick with Crohn's Disease and the doctors pumped me full of steroids that made me hideous, I still believed that one day he would see how much I loved him and he would love me back. I don't think during those years that it ever occurred to me that maybe, just maybe, he really just wasn't at all interested. Seems almost conceited now that I thought that way.
Having grown up and moved on many years ago (I won't say how many because that makes me sound old), I would think about my youth from time to time. It wasn't until I started writing this song that I had my epiphany that I had fooled myself into believing during my entire pre-teen and teen years that the Bo and Hope style romances of Days of Our Lives were actually real. Having read a condensed version of their love story, I can safely say "Fuck all that". lol http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bo_Brady_and_Hope_Williams
Anyway, I'm glad that soap operas and fairy tales aren't true because reality is much more exciting. I'm also glad that I had the experiences I did because they made me into who I am today. Let's face it, I'm pretty effing cool.
